Thanksgiving

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 NKJV

This Thanksgiving, there will be an empty chair at dinner but his place in my heart will always be full of love. I am exceedingly thankful to be experiencing the peace of God which surpasses all understanding and I am eternally thankful that I can rest assured knowing that my little monkey is in the presence of God and that I, too, will one day be there with him.

Wisdom

I'd like to share Brent Riggs' thoughts on wisdom.

http://www.seriousfaith.com/2009/11/about-wisdom/
click here

11/11

Today is Veteran's Day. Mason talked about joining the Army, to heat up the Navy blood around him, but also to, in his words, do extreme stuff like jump out of (perfectly good) airplanes and help people. Joining the Army was the only 'in the future' thing that he really talked about. I don't know if his spirit knew that he wouldn't get to grow up and do the normal things or what. He did and does get to be a soldier for God though. I couldn't imagine having to say goodbye to Mason, sending him off to war, but I was pretty sure that someday I would. Maybe my spirit knew I'd have to somehow let him go. By accident, I also realized that today is exactly nine months since he went to Heaven. That feels wierd to me. It's not because I was pregnant for nine months because I wasn't. So I'm not sure why it's any different than seven or eight months, but it is... maybe because it makes twelve months seem so close and I can't wrap my mind around the fact that it's been that long already. The next three months hold some of the darkest, but also some of the brightest memories and there are a bunch of firsts to get through. I know we will get through though. Strength and peace from God are truly unexplainable things.

Traveling

Today we are applying for a new passport for Jenny in preparation for a big trip that we're taking over what will be difficult days. Realistically, for several reasons we probably wouldn't be taking this trip if Mason were still here with us. He didn't like air travel and this trip will require a lot of it. He wasn't scared of flying. He just didn't like the limited space and activity. He enjoyed seeing new places and things but there was no place like home for him. When we traveled he was always ready when it was time to go home (and see his cat). This is a trip that we need to take and I'm sure it will be good, but it seems so strange travellng without him. No matter how far or for how long I go on this earth, I will still miss him. I will be glad when I have completed my travels on this journey.